My girlfriend and I are planning a trip to Ohio to see my family in June. This is causing some anxiety. In both of us.
For most of my life, I have both felt very close to and completely separate from my family. In many ways, I have made a new family out here in Oregon. Some part of me wants to mix those together. Some part of me wants to protect each of them by keeping them totally separate.
The men in my support group are some of the most loving and supportive people I’ve ever met. Without them, I don’t know how I would have made it through the last year.
I’ve been avoiding telling anyone who it was who was responsible for the childhood trauma I have talked about at length here, but tonight I realized that the reasons I’ve been keeping this secret have had nothing to do with me and everything to do with protecting him and his family.
Sexual violence leaves a complicated fracture in our lives. A year in, I feel like I’ve barely begun to see the pattern, much less picked up any of the pieces. But I’m healing and I’m growing.
If you need help, please seek it out. You’ll never be sorry that you did.
There’s a chance I like this lady a bit.
I would like to apologize to Terence for the terrible likeness. And thank him for the quote from Jim Henson backstage before our final performance of Soul Harmony. It was quite the journey and I can’t imagine it without Terence’s warmth and talent.
I recently finished performing in the world premiere of the musical, “Soul Harmony.” It’s the story of what is arguably the first R&B group, Sonny Til and the Orioles. I ended up playing the “heavy” a lot in this show and tried to add a few touches to make these various, small roles a little more interesting.
I’m not sure why my girlfriend ever lets me hang out with her roommate.
Pacing backstage, dealing with the fact that feelings don’t respect the reasons you’re feeling them.
I need to control my anger better, even if it is directed at the right people for the right reasons.
Given what this person knows about me, a hug kind of seemed more appropriate but, at the same time, not.
Today I went to the dentist for the fourth time in my entire life.
When he looked at my teeth he was positively giddy about doing the cleaning.