July 28th, 2014

July 28th, 2014
July 28th, 2014

To quote my favorite movie, “I know drug real from real real!”

It’s incredibly difficult to sift through the things that ┬ácome from what seems almost like an outside source and the thoughts that are truly, genuinely mine when I’m being effected by my Depression or feeling anxious, but I have a lot of practice at it.

When these thoughts, which I have not been confronted with consistently for almost 5 years, began to surface again I knew that it was a side effect of the medication and not me slipping down into a spiral.

I didn’t panic, I didn’t act on them. I went to the doctor, I told her what was happening, and I’m trying something else.

It would be easy to just swear off anti-depressants entirely, but like a diabetic trying to control their illness through diet alone, I know that sometimes I have to accept that I have a chemical problem that can require a chemical solution.

That said, if you’re having suicidal thoughts, please reach out for help. You’re not alone. I’ve been there and if I had gone through with it when I had a date and a plan, I would have missed all the best things in my life. You are loved. You are worth it.

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