
Going back to the apartment to spend one last night there was hard after spending an hour or so just feeling the emptiness of my new space.
We have a history with this song and it played at a moment while we were packing up my old room that seemed too perfect to just be the clever programming of a streaming music site’s algorithms. The feeling as if we were caught in a narrative (rather than real life) amused me.
I’m not sure I quite captured it, but trying new things is what this project (and my life in general these days).
This kind of pleading is incredibly manipulative, but sometimes what I know I should say and what my sad, desperate brain is screaming at me are incredibly at odds. Sometimes the only way to get the lying, cloying voice to be silent is to give it a voice, even if just for a few moments.
The last time I tried medication to help me with my struggles, the results were less than inspiring.
I’m hopeful that this time I can find some relief without side effects that can cause the cure to be worse than the disease.
This was an incredibly hard day in an incredibly hard week, but this moment of levity between me and some of my favorite people is exactly the way I want to remember it.
Which I suppose is obvious, since I wouldn’t have written a comic about it if I didn’t.
But I just want to acknowledge how sometimes this comic captures the hard moments from a good day and other times it captures the good moments from a hard one.