My aunt gave this car to my mother, who gave this car to me. It’s not much, but it’s tangible and it’s a reminder of how much she loved and cared for me.
January 18th, 2017
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January 17th, 2017
Between 2012 and 2014, I lost about 100 pounds. Since 2015, I’ve gained 60 of it back. It’s weighing on more than my joints and my belts.
January 15th, 2017
This is less hindsight than it is perspective.
January 14th, 2017
Just trying to walk around a bookstore again was too much. It felt like the world couldn’t be turning yet. Like the sun couldn’t have risen again.
January 9th, 2017
We left her on a hill in her home state of West Virginia, with her Mother, her Father, her oldest brother, and her oldest sister. Her casket had a bouquet of yellow roses.
The words the preacher spoke were old. They were comforting.
I wasn’t supposed to have to carry her casket, but I did.
January 8th, 2017
My Mother’s funeral.
January 6th, 2017
For a moment, when I walked into my parents’ kitchen (my Dad’s kitchen), I thought my aunt was her. Apparently, everyone had this moment that day.
January 4th, 2017
She’s gone.
January 3rd, 2017
The news about Mom keeps getting worse. I don’t expect that to change.
January 2nd, 2017
Today, I found out that my mother had a very serious infection. I could go into the details, but they don’t matter. Not really. While everyone else was holding on to hope, I knew just enough about what she had to know her odds weren’t good.
I was 2,500 miles away, broke, and caught completely off guard. I wasn’t ready. But I tried to start getting there.