I’ve been far away lately, but I’m trying to come back. My eyes have always been a distraction, finding a pattern of color or light that distracts me from where I am, but while I’m so distant it’s been worse than usual.

Today, Kara sat me down and made me pose for her camera. Just sitting still, without distractions, under her gaze, broke me. Not being able to run from my grief made it fall out of me.

Maybe someday she’ll share the pictures. I’m sure they’re intense to look at as I crumble and fail to regain composure.