Tag Archives: confessional

July 21st, 2014

July 21st, 2014
July 21st, 2014

Today was a day of confronting things that at other points in my life I would not have. I would have shied away. I would have acquiesced.

I’m not saying I did everything perfectly, but I didn’t do a bit of it without putting myself and my own happiness first and foremost. I didn’t spend a moment sacrificing my needs for the needs of others.

And if you think that sounds selfish, I would suggest you go read about codependency.

I am responsible for my happiness and right now, I’m being very responsible.

July 1st, 2014

July 1st, 2014
July 1st, 2014

I often feel like it’s too late for me to become the cultured person I intended to be. I didn’t get the liberal arts education that I was obviously meant for. I never took a poetry course in college. I never attended the orchestra as a kid.

It is easy to forget how much I have already transformed when all I can see is how much is still left to do.

June 20th, 2014

June 20th, 2014
June 20th, 2014

For those that know me personally, if you ever find yourself wondering “Has Jesse thought this through? Does he realize how dangerous/risky/uncertain it is?” I just want to very clearly state that the answer is always “Yes.”

I have thought through every terrible thing that might happen, including at least a dozen you probably couldn’t have without first having read the wikipedia entry for unusual deaths (which I’ve read at least twice).

The question for me isn’t whether there’s risk, it’s whether the rewards are worth it. If my choices are to risk everything or stand still, standing still feels like death to me these days so I’m going to go for it.