This is both me feeling like I don’t have enough to contribute and feeling like I don’t deserve the help.
Both feelings are untrue.
This is both me feeling like I don’t have enough to contribute and feeling like I don’t deserve the help.
Both feelings are untrue.
This may have worked better as an essay than a comic, but this was where my mind was today.
As soon as I felt that anxiety telling me I shouldn’t go that I definitely had to, but it still felt like riding up the hill to the Saint John’s Bridge just to get out of my apartment.
The men in my support group are some of the most loving and supportive people I’ve ever met. Without them, I don’t know how I would have made it through the last year.
I’ve been avoiding telling anyone who it was who was responsible for the childhood trauma I have talked about at length here, but tonight I realized that the reasons I’ve been keeping this secret have had nothing to do with me and everything to do with protecting him and his family.
Sexual violence leaves a complicated fracture in our lives. A year in, I feel like I’ve barely begun to see the pattern, much less picked up any of the pieces. But I’m healing and I’m growing.
If you need help, please seek it out. You’ll never be sorry that you did.
I haven’t looked into legal action (and don’t intend to), but the very idea that someone would stand up and say, “This happened. It wasn’t right,” still makes me burst into tears.
You can’t “fix” other people. You can only take stock of yourself and what you’ve done and try to do better.
I wouldn’t have expected this to hit me so hard, but it did and I learned a bit more about myself by going through it.
I feel as if I’ve grown three decades over the course of the last 365 days. Let’s see what the next year has in store.
I’ve felt a lot of anger, I’ve accessed the feeling of fighting back, but I’ve never let myself be truly angry at him. I don’t know why.
But that’s exactly why I’m in therapy.
There are two sides to this debate:
People who agree that no victim of sexual assault is to be blamed for what happened to them
and
assholes.