I’m not slipping so far that I’m into ideation, but I’ve been down this road before and I want to stop it now.
Tag Archives: anxiety
July 29th, 2015
Sometimes when I’m not sure why something is painful, I just ignore it until I can come up with the reason.
I’m not saying this is entirely healthy. I’m just saying it happens.
July 27th, 2015
Too much.
July 26th, 2015
I can’t imagine Kara having a hard time accepting love, considering how I feel about her. And yet …
(Of course, she’s told me exactly the same thing. But that’s different because it’s me.)
July 25th, 2015
You may have already seen the piece I’m copying from here, but if not keep an eye out for my Commissions page …
July 18th, 2015
I am deep and articulate.
July 16th, 2015
Drinking from my Mount Hood pint glass and working through the big feelings.
July 8th, 2015
When the anxiety hits me, I have problems with trusting people. Even the people I love. Especially the people I love.
July 7th, 2015
I am articulate and intelligent.
July 5th, 2015
During a day filled with reminders that my current relationships are nothing like my former relationships (including overhearing a woman talk about emotionally abusing her boyfriend while we were at dinner), it’s hard not to engage in unhealthy behavior after having lived the life I have.
I have a tendency to put the people I care most about up on a pedestal. Right now it can be incredibly tempting to do this with my partner. But I know that will just drive a wedge between us.
So I struggle to continue to be present, honest, and engaged.
She’s worth the struggle.