All posts by naymond

May 6th, 2015

May 6th, 2015
May 6th, 2015

My girlfriend and I are planning a trip to Ohio to see my family in June. This is causing some anxiety. In both of us.

For most of my life, I have both felt very close to and completely separate from my family. In many ways, I have made a new family out here in Oregon. Some part of me wants to mix those together. Some part of me wants to protect each of them by keeping them totally separate.

May 5th, 2015

May 5th, 2015
May 5th, 2015

The men in my support group are some of the most loving and supportive people I’ve ever met. Without them, I don’t know how I would have made it through the last year.

I’ve been avoiding telling anyone who it was who was responsible for the childhood trauma I have talked about at length here, but tonight I realized that the reasons I’ve been keeping this secret have had nothing to do with me and everything to do with protecting him and his family.

Sexual violence leaves a complicated fracture in our lives. A year in, I feel like I’ve barely begun to see the pattern, much less picked up any of the pieces. But I’m healing and I’m growing.

If you need help, please seek it out. You’ll never be sorry that you did.