This was yet another eventful hike. I didn’t get my camp set up until midnight, then woke up to a couple of dudebro’s setting up their camp at about 2:15 AM.
But I regret not a second of it.
This was yet another eventful hike. I didn’t get my camp set up until midnight, then woke up to a couple of dudebro’s setting up their camp at about 2:15 AM.
But I regret not a second of it.
I know what to do when I’m sad, I’m learning what to do when I’m anxious, but man oh man do I have no idea what to do when I’m angry.
It just doesn’t suit me. At all.
I really didn’t expect to celebrate my longest run (so far) with bloody nipples.
But I did.
I basically spend my money on food, clothes, and camping gear nowadays.
I never regret any of the things I buy in those three categories.
Okay, sometimes I regret the food. A little.
Today was a day of confronting things that at other points in my life I would not have. I would have shied away. I would have acquiesced.
I’m not saying I did everything perfectly, but I didn’t do a bit of it without putting myself and my own happiness first and foremost. I didn’t spend a moment sacrificing my needs for the needs of others.
And if you think that sounds selfish, I would suggest you go read about codependency.
I am responsible for my happiness and right now, I’m being very responsible.
Each day, a tiny step forward.
There are no worse lies than the ones we tell ourselves. Thankfully, the clarity I felt in that water stayed with me as I went back into civilization and faced some hard truths.
I have often craved solitude in my life, but there’s no experience quite like sitting alone, your feet chilling in a mountain lake, and no one for miles around.
Today was restorative.
Tonight I went to a live recording of the Sex Nerd Sandra podcast, which I’ve been a fan of for about two years now. Her guest was the brilliant Erika Moen, author of Dar and her current project, Oh Joy Sex Toy.
Depending on how they edit the episode, you may get to hear my voice as I ask my questions about being sex positive within my work. If they do, you’ll get to hear Erika’s rather surprising answer.
Even if they don’t use my question, I’m sure you’ll hear me laugh. Loudly. A lot. Because that’s what I do.
Sometimes you’re just trying to keep a little distance and sometimes you need to put up some boundaries that can be seen from space.